Why am I grumbling over things that I shouldn't?
I was given the choice, so yes, I have no reason to complain.
I failed to realize that.

I was so stressed up today that I quit from the Chinese Committee. The committee's great, just that I think the committee doesn't need someone like me, who is so irresponsible and only know how to escape from the reality when he loses control of himself.

Damn those medicines. Making me dizzy and feel so tired.
Just let me off, you pessimistic bug.

I'm so lost now.
I don't know why, but there's an urge in me... that I want to tell the teachers and the comm people, "Please give up on me, I'm a utter failure in life and in school. I don't deserve your attention. I think I know where I should belong to."

I tried, I tried my very very best.
I'm sorry, I failed to meet your expectations. I wish I could have done better. I really wish I could.